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Life has had it’s ups and downs but all in all I can not complain.  I am not doing to bad on the weight..at 240 right now..I think alot of that is muscle because I was walking 3 miles a day and now I run at least 2 miles 6 days a week…I tell you the clothes sure are fitting better :)  I am feeling pretty good.  I may be down more because that weight was taken a few minutes ago after dinner and all…it is 9pm here.  I will try to remember to weigh myself first thing in the am.

Hope you all are doing well!!

Well times have been tough here.  I know everyone has had one thing or another happen.  We have been working our buns off for our son who has yet again, been diagnosed with Aspergers (Autism) fighting with school, trying to get the proper care, and just coming to terms with it. 

The good thing is I have not gained any weight in past few months but I have not lost any either.  I am in school now so what time I do get not doing school work or attending to the kids is spend doing house work.  UGH!!

I just wnated to drop you all a note and let you kow you are in my thoughts!!

For the past few months my PMS has been scary.  I mean real scary….I get SUPER bitchy and I take it out on my family and then I get some crazy idea I would be better off alone…blah..blah…blah…etc..  Anyway it is here…yesterday I was having a pretty good day, just doing my thing.  I was at the Dr office with my kids and all of a sudden it was like a total transformation…I do not know how to explain it.  I felt all warm and irritated all of a sudden.  The Dr asked me something and when I answered I noticed my voice was monatone and sarcastic.  I apologized to the poor man.  I knew right away what had just overtaken me…….PMS!  I am trying very hard to keep a better eye on my body and emotions this month.  I am telling you…this PMS thing is getting serious.  I had talked to my Dr about it last month and he gave me some meds to take as soon as I notice it.  When I got home, I took one and when I talked to hubby I let him know what was going on and that I am going to need help to get through this.  I have no idea what is going on.  Is it age?  weight?  I don’t know but I need to get a handle on it.

I know poor Debbie has trouble with this too….I know yours is comming.  We are right around the same time.  I am here for you girly.

Except for the Little Debbie cakes, KFC and cheese curds from A&W yesterday (one more sign)…my eating has been OK.

Well I did it!  That is right I went and registered for my first couple classes yesterday.  I can not believe it.  For someone whos only dream in high school was to retire from the military this is a Big deal.  I did 14 years but with situations beyond my control I was not able to finish it out.  I have been rather bitter about this for years.  I finally had to hand in my ID card.  I have had an ID card since birth just about.  I was sad and it took some time to realize that life is not over and I am still rather young, there is a lot out there.  After lots and lots and lots of soul searching I finally decided what I want to do.  There is alot of pressure on me to do the best I can and then some.  Only a handful of people are selected to enter the Radiography program here.  Of course they take the top…so after being out of school for 18.5 years (longer than the age of most of the students themselves) I am determined to do all I can.  I was told to pick something else too….you know like a back up plan.  Well I looked all through the books last night and there is nothing else I am interested in.  SO..I have to do good.  Jan 2010 I will be putting in my package for the program.

I have not lost any weight this week but I did not gain any either.  So I am steady at 249 after Thanksgiving….so I am not to upset.  That makes 11 lbs since joining Buddyslim.  I would like more but I am not complaining.  You all have been wonderful with all your support….I LOVE THIS PLACE!!

I have figured out what is making me not want to work out as hard as I need to….sweat!  I HATE to sweat.  As soon as I start I want to quit.  I love the “pain” of working out but the sweat is kills me.   When I start to sweat my body swells and I feel like I am going to pop.  I have been to several Dr.’s and they say nothing is wrong with me…but man this sucks.  What can I do?  Do you have any suggestions?  I try to make it as cool as possible to make the workout last longer but like I said…..once it starts I am DONE!  This morning I was only able to get through about 3/4 of my workout and had to stop.  Will it go away as I continue to loose weight?  God, I hope so!

Today has been one of those days.  I had some dental work done this morning (root cleaning) so I will not want to eat much tomorrow….funny but I scheduled like this on purpose I know I am not right!  I go back on Monday for the other half.

I did get to finish up my shopping for the kids.  I was happy to be able to find EVERYTHING I wanted..unlike other years.  So on Friday I am sleeping in.  YEA!!

I made some adjustments around the house to prepare for the week-end.  I told the maid to take the day off…sent the cook on a paid vacation…the pet sitter had plans….the nanny was begging for a day off…..the gardener is happy it is slow right now……and the pool cleaner is on admin leave….but I told the trainer I needed him despite the other changes.  Basicly I am taking the day off!!!  I deserve it!!

Hope you all have a WONDERFUL Holiday weekend! 

Thank you all my buddies!!!  You helped me loose my first 10lbs and I got me a bright shiney red star!!!  Much love to all of you!

Hope everyone has a safe and healthy Friday!!!   Keep smiling!

in all my “muffin top” glory.  I am hoping to post new ones every month.  Sure hope there will be lots of changes

Ok this is getting rediculous.  I need to loose this crap NOW!  I had seen my neighbor loose and tone very nicely using the FIRM so I decided to look into it.  I was on the website and the WAVE caught my eye.  It looks like fun so I bought it.  It came in the mail on Friday and I actually pulled it out and tried it.  I was right it is fun.  So yesterday and today I have been doing it…starting at the beginner level of course.  I am sure it is funny to watch me since I am very uncoordinated right now but I will get there :)  I also went to my very first ever Weight Watchers meeting today.  It was nice to see the scale there said the same as mine at home.  I have such high hopes for me now.  I really want to be in onederland by 21 May.  That is 53lbs.  I have to stay focused!  But, I do not believe it is unreasonable.  I was shocked to see how many points I get to eat….HOLY CRAP!  How will I ever loose weight eating all that?  I will try to eat as close to my pts as possible….can’t guarantee anything though.  I have not been walking in over a week…last week because of all the “stuff” going on and this week because..I dunno…just haven’t.  I will get back out there tomorrow!  As for the water….well…..has not been going to well.  I desperately need to get on that issue right away!!

Hope everyone is doing good and having a great week!

After my week of hell I decided I needed to step on the scale.  So, with tissue in hand and my heart beating a hundred miles an hour I stepped up.  I was scared the first time I waited to long to look down so the darn thing shut off on me.  Just a little nervous can you say?  So I step up again.  I am so nervous and I know any gain is my fault and my fault alone.  I look and there it is ….. 251.4.  What?  That is a loss!  Only about .6 lbs but none the less a loss!  I needed that ever so slight loss to let me know I can not give up and I need to try harder!  This week is all new and as far as I can tell all should be good.  I am happy now…ready to keep going. 

I am so greatful the wagon slowed down enough for me to jump back on!